random thoughts

i wish it were winter soon
i love the cold weather and the warm clothes & winter break
how i would love a break right now
the closest one is thanksgiving break ? i think
TWO MORE MONTHS

school's alright i'm doing better cause i'm paying attention more now
i'm going to focus on school
don't know what college culinary college
i keep asking myself why do i need to study so hard when i'm not even going to go to a real college
in culinary school all you need is a highschool diploma
but i'm studying for backup plans or some thing
economy sucks

yay happy precongratulations to ms. gruenberg (: don't get mad at us anymore cause your wedding plans are now over HHAHAH jkay

i really really want to take a bath

should i go to fresh concert i want to see david crowder oh my geeeeee

mmm i want some kimchi quesadilla you think it's nasty until you try it

sighhh

SO MUCH CHEM HW

a la lalaa bandbandband

it's eleven eighteen

mhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhm i loathe loaves of bread hhehehe

something is wrong with me

duude younha is amazing i love her songs & her english accent is spectacular

i love that word spectacular i dont even know if i'm spelling it right but mozilla fox says i am so yay for me

happy birthday to all those babies who are being born right now you guys are special cause i specially celebrated your birthday

i think shakira's song she wolf sounds funny on the AWOOO~ part reminds me of jenny HAHA

i have a dead leg THE END END

done for nowwwww

that guy

i fell in love with pomegranate juice
anywho

yesterday was fresh & it was :D except we left early oh wells
so like when starfield came out ofcourse everyone ran to the front
even me & i was standing next to this super tall guy and i was kind of squished by him o_o
and it was like that for awhile but it was alright i still heard the songs & saw the band & then he pushed me up forward in front of him and said oh you can see better from here & i was like dannnnng.
while everyone is trying to get in front of everyone he offers someone else to go in front of him & while we were praising i heard him from the back and it sounded so genuine yeeeeah

amazing

really now ?

what is your fucking problem
why are you acting so elementary
before i disregarded it because it was like oh it's just you being you
but no it's not you're acting so different
you're just pissing me off
you're so full of it
but you're waaaaaaaaaaay below that
i can't believe i admired you
but now you're just pathetic


sorry i'm venting my anger out.

good things about today

there were a lot of bad things but i dont care

the good things

i learned something in band practice today (:
there's someone who orders mr. a around
i ate yogurt
i got really hyper; something that hasnt happened in SOOOOOO LONG (ask justin & julian o_o)
wedding ?! I WANT TO GO TO A WEDDING

hrm la la alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

goooooooooooooooodbye world !

i feel hopeless &

school is going by super fast just like i expected ito be

its already the fifth week & i have a C in chem C for Chem YAYYYA --x

wtfreak anywho i must strive harder i'm looking for a chem tutor know any good ones ?

this year is uneventful
& mr. a is pissing me off

oh yeah we wont have a lot of rehersals

i mean yeah its like one or two hours every day

but expanding it to the whole week

ridicuulous

i really wanted to quit band but i cant

being section leader sucks too now i have to go to every football game not just home yaay i'm so happy NOT

WTF i cant even go to fresh now

today i experienced

humility and shame.

today i went

to this college thing it was actually very helpful. very. i didn't know a lot of things.

i think i'm going to go that harvard square place that woman was intense. INTENSE. you had to be there

& then i went to brea to eat kogi tacos from the kogi truck. waited like two hours O: but then it was kind of fun cause active was giving out stuff & i drank a lot of free mcdonalds coffee & got like six dollars worth of coupon hahahaha eh. BUT YEAH sigh i realized i really really really need to study so yeah i don't have much i'll put pictures


pork burrito i think ?



tofu burrito ? i forgot ._.



kimchi & something quesadilla



galbi taco i think this is my favorite :D


why are all the pictures so yellow --x

so fast.

man it's the end of the third week of school & already a speech !? oh dang..

sighh but oh wells i took this class. & essay :( so sad so sad anywho.

i don't think i can look at like any 2pm shows i really can't it doesn't seem right.. i can only listen to their music. for now i'm watching 2am shows i like jokwon he's so cute<3 hahahaha

i know my future now, i'll go to culinary school, then apprenticeship or internship with a french patissier, & then set up a cafe in korea & make it well-known so that taecyeon knows about it. & then he'll stop by & hopefully he won't be married by then & fall madly in love with me HAHHAAHHA. but yeah i do want to live in korea for some time.

JOIN OPERATION SMILE :) please haha

& uh. uh. uh. yeah. eh. chemistry hw too much too much chemistry hw bravo gives out too much hw so much hw it's uber gay

ohyeah & homecoming. this homecoming has a kind of like the notebook feel cause you know how he saw her at like the fair. hahaha

someone go to bingo setup for me :D

in denial

Jae Beom is going to go back
There still will be 2PM

fifteen hours

dang that's how much i slept, i guess i was really tired

anywho freakin pissed me off --x
i hate people who tell you what to do. not like teachers or like people who have authority over you, but just like your friends or someone you know. & i'm not talking about like advices, "you should wear that instead of that." that just means maybe you know they know what's better & they're helping you. i'm talking about like ew why are your bedsheets green get like blue ones. & you're thinking wtf why should i say ? & they're like cause i said so. MAKES NO SENSE.

my example is a bad one. but if you were me & you were talking to this person i was talking to you would understand

word of the day: piss-off; noun, someone who makes you mad frustrated or just simply pisses you off.
example, that person i talked to is a piss-off.

SAT

school is slower than it seems
saxophone section is deteriorating
i shouldnt be section leader

anywho i went to tutor today, & the essay question was, "what is the work for your generation?"

& i thought of the typical answers: change economy for better, poverty, global warming, media influence.

& then my tutor suggested how bout selflessness.

& i thought bingo. people are selfish, i'm selfish i know. so yeah, we are the future.
no this blog is not propaganda. if you read this then i encourage you to be selfless. well not completely that would be called a pushover. i'll try too anyways

yeah, i don't want to live in a disgusting world years from now.

is that being selfish ? to want a better life ? i confuse myself

nothing to write about

ditto. there's nothing to write about these days
i mean if i was excited for homecoming i'll be like OHMYGOSH HC
but i don't care about that
& i don't want to talk about 2pm cause you'll get annoyed of me
& schools not very exciting

i want something to happen
i want choir costumes to come
i want the thing i'm waiting for
i want to stop wanting

i believe everything is a big misunderstanding
i believe that you guys suck

i don't think i should follow through with what i planned to do

i think you're gay